So day to day life has gotten easier. Ham will sit and "play" for a period of time now. But the night time is still a train wreck. He gets up to eat far more often than he needs to...and there is no rhyme or reason to his waking. I'm sitting here in a zombie like state wondering WHY I did this to myself again. I had time to go to the gym...I could shop at my leisure...I could go to bed and wake up when I wanted to... And for the past 130 days I have been stripped of those luxuries. GyM? Once a month maybe.. shopping.. rarely without Ham in tow and in a rushed fashion. we are supposed to take a vacation in a couple weeks and I can't even muster up an ounce of happiness to go :( I just want everyone to leave so I can sleep in my own bed............
